im now totally emotionless when i see chester. -smirks- all the things ppl told me bout him helpd me. i know they are all true. cos i know him. but i dont want to, nemore(: ive got my life to care about. hurhurs.
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i wana be the only hand, you need to hold on to
Thursday, January 06, 2005
8:19 PM
lifeworthliving
man.. its kinda busy these days. with the PSL thingy. darn im sooo shagged ): neways, i wont be able to blog as often nemore.. cos its really tiring to reach home late and all. sighhh.. i hate this stupid new school system *screams* we hafta carry the freaking heavy school bag around the school like fools. sian.. its so mafan!
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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
back from the gathering! woot it was fun! the 1st day wasnt that good cos we had to prepare all the stuff and try to settle down.
(29dec)
the bungalow was HUGE! there were 3 rooms so the girls had one, the guys had one and mr mubarak & family had one. obviously he got the biggest room, and yes, the boys had the smallest! *grins* the aircon was blardy cold and we were freezing thru the nite! wendy yvonne and i couldnt take it so we slept in the hall. wendy slept on a shelf LOL. von slept on the chairs and i joined rashif mahdi n arvind on the floor. poor us :b but it was fun, we were like chatting thruout the nite and rashif whipped me with his studded belt -ouch- *mahdi slept without his shirt on! boy, he was hot! lol.
(30dec)
omg the next day, we were all shagged and kept dozing of during the blardy workshop. we played games like flip-the-canvas and we squeezed like CRAZY! i almost thought i would end up flat-chested! hurhur neways he grabbed my hand and held on to it! gosh! :b *YAYS* it ended around 5 something and we started the BBQ!! woohoo. i was just sitting around waiting for food cos there were like 10 ppl surrounding the pit, i dont know why. rashif and gang went to 7-11 and bought some titbits and alcohol. had to sneak it in, mubarak would report to the police if he knew.. they bought me a venom vodka which had a pathetic percent of alcohol =/ but it was nice. after the drinks we playd UNO with mubarak. *flashing news* rashif doesnt know how to play! LOL! and he thinks pepper = garlic. like what the hell... look at him, such a cool metal guitarist and yet he doesnt know these shit. gosh....!! hes just one handsome crapper la. haha. tonite we couldnt tahan, had to sleep haha.. but it was kinda nice cos there were only 4 of us girls left, ayu me fiz and zie. so we all slept on the bed. AYU is one cute sleeper. she dreams and scolds us. haha funny girl.
(31dec)
check out time! we left b4 mubarak and went to BK tamp to feast. the girls finishd and left first and we went to bedok mac to slack and i saw chester. sighh.. when i wantd to see him so badly last time, i dont. and when i dont want to, i see him. but it was only for awhile, so wth. he went off and we continued slacking for 1/2 hour and headed to valley8 to play pool! and chester was in there... great....... =/why?!?! this is bullshit man... the way he acts piss me off even more. now i really want to forget bout him!! but still. i dont hate him. i cant. can someone just kill me? *screams* and yay i saw kelvin!! this time i got his number! oh yeah pool was fun, i won many tables! haha maybe it was just luck. later we went library and den home. i was sooo tired. slept from 8 plus to 11 plus. and rashif askd me if i would wana go countdown with him. he was crazy haha... 11plus already, by the time i reach there its new year -shurgs- neways he was late for countdown, reachd downtown east at 12 45! haha silly boy.
my classmates rock! i love them(:
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in 15mins time im off to the mrt station! meeting 3/8 at pasiris mrt. we'll be going to Aloha Changi! 3day 2nites stay(: but i can only stay one nite -strangles my dad- sighh.. hope it'll be fun!
no matter how hard i try to occupy myself with stuff.i still think of you.
no matter how hard i try to be happy.i still feel the excruciating pain.
no matter how hard i try to smile.in the end im still shedding tears for u.
no matter how hard i try to forget.i know u'll stay in my heart forever.
how do i bear this pain ure putting me thru? :(
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the blardy performance was cancelled!! waste my time.. haiyerr..
went to the movies with yangkai today. watched Kung Fu Hustle again. but he paid. -grins- so i dont mind just accompanying him(: he laughs blardy easily, he laughed alot altho i din even think it was funny. i was just stuffing myself with popcorn thru'out the movie. cos ive watchd it. was planning to watch national treasure but it was at 3plus n we were there like... 12 plus? neways ive watchd that as well, but was tinking national treasure is more worth watching twice.
now im looking forward to Seed of Chucky. i wana watch Saw!! but its nc16! x( as well as blade trinity.. sigh. im also like.. so looking forward to the opening of school, i cant stand rotting at home nemore!! *screams* i dont like to play too much, or end i'll end up like him. which i dont want to. sigh.. i guess i'll go sleep now. this is toooo boring!
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went school for meeting this morning, miss esther lee suggests to invite TAUFIK n pug jelly to our 3rd charity concert coming up on march 12, -Music is it!!!- neways she bought these false teeth from heeren. which were awfully outrageous!! its like.. brown/yellow and verrrry far apart; a total turn off! haha. despite that, she lookd hilarious wearing it! she's sooo cute.. cant stand it!! x) i borrowed it and wore it around the canteen/bookshop, the book boy got shocked! haha.
mr oh gave out Fuji Apples from China *yummie* it was joosey!! but too huge, got sick of it after eating bout half an apple :b thanks neways. den jan izzati dian fiz fahana and i went to the jungle beside our school, wantd to scout around BUT we gave up after walking bout.. 20meters in. we were afraid of getting lost you see Xb went back to school with loads of insect bites, red ants on our heads n nuthing else *shrugs* fiz went home and the rest of us slackd at the Den for bout 2 hours? and we spoild the door.. oops(: but mr oh got it settled.
went to parkway parade to shop. fahana n dian went straight to Mango but didnt buy nething. ate at banquet den went to shop for lingerie and i got 3 undies for 9.90! so cheap! *minah cheapskate; me* haha. den we went to sniff some perfumes, True Star sucks. Eternity Moment was sexy. too bad i aint got the bucks :(
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just came back from partying* woohoo! the food n wine were yummie! haha. had some sashimi and the wasabi (however u spell that) totally screwd my brain!! -ouch- but it was nice tho; saddist. harhars(: got some christmas presents which werent really what i wantd, but what the hell, its the thought that counts n its better than nothing rite?! ive still got his christmas present in my closet, collecting dust. cant wait for school to reopen so i can pass it to him, and get it over with. sheesh!
ive been wearing heels nowadays, man its tuff.. im mean its a blardy torture! im not used to it yet. what to do.. im a female. sigh..
cant bliv im turning 16 next year! secondary 4! its like so freaking fast! it seemd like i was secondary 1 just last week... ok im exaggerating :b but its fast! and he's gona wear long pants next year, gosh i'll be gripped! joking *goosebums* hoho.. neways, ive gota buck up now, N's coming and so will O's. then poly (if i get in) and i'll be my brother's senior! haha, he'll be in ite this coming new year and hope we'll get into the same poly, so he can sponsor my lunch or something! -smirks-
oh its kinda late now, got PSL meeting tmr @ school. goodnite all, gotta doze now(: sweetdreams
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hello!! my new blog!! i wana get over him but i cant. how?! well, hope my life will turn out better by each day(: he'll never come back to me. so i'll give it up. and move on. i admit, i still love him i still miss him, i cant force myself not to, rite?! :b so i shall let time heal my hurts. life goes on ya? -grins-
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